Broken Hallelujah

I hope you press play on the song above. (Sorry it's a random YouTube video, I spent a little time trying to figure out how play a song with no video, but wasn't having any luck). I heard this song on the radio this morning and it really resonated with me! I will paste the lyrics below to encourage you to let them sink in. :]

I can barely stand right now.
Everything is crashing down,
And I wonder where You are.

I try to find the words to pray.
I don't always know what to say,
But You're the one that can hear my heart.

Even though I don't know what your plan is,
I know You're making beauty from these ashes.

I've seen joy and I've seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

You know the things that have brought me here.
You know the story of every tear.
‘Cause You've been here from the very start.

Even though I don't know what your plan is,
I know You're making beauty from these ashes.

I've seen joy and I've seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

When all is taken away, don't let my heart be changed.
Let me always sing Hallelujah
When I feel afraid, don't let my hope be erased
Let me always sing Hallelujah.
Let me always sing Hallelujah.

I will always sing
I will always sing
Here's my broken hallelujah.

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Such, such powerful words that I feel like could fit for a number of life's obstacles. It's so true that sometimes I just really don't know what to say, what to pray, and all I can do is raise empty hands to Him, and allow him to make beauty of the ashes. I hope this touches you in good ways as it did me.

Had things worked out differently, this week would have been the beginning (or another stage) of a life changing event. My first baby would have been born. I'm thankful for knowing that, and thankful for knowing that our baby IS indeed a being, just in Heaven instead of on earth. 

Spring is happening folks, in my yard and everywhere. Green grass, rainy residue, and bright yellow flowers. Beauty out of ashes.